I hate ants.

The war broke.
I lost 2 times. I stood my ground and fought till blood shed.
I lost in everyway.
My opponenet has outgrown me, learnt my tactics and killed me.
I lay there defeated, in tears...the pain of my fingers, my head, my heart.
Im once blamed for it all. Im useless, a troublemaker, a nuisence, put it simply...im just an annoying bug that deseves to die.
Hahahaha, it hurts so much that it's becoming funny, I wonder how many times I've heard those words about me. I rather be deaf then hear such things about me.
Oh no...The ants are invading my heart again. What should I do? Their crawling all over it, It's making it hard for me to breath, Im suffocating...I feel dizzy.
I passed out for a moment and I was possessed by something else.
My whole body aches with pain and misery.
I look so ugly, Is it possible to be so young and yet feel so old?
My face is buried under the tears and the pain.
What should I do? Im scared.
Ouch...my fingers hurt, their bleeding.
My hair keeps falling out every 10 second. Im gonna be bald.
I lost again.
The Devil took over.
I finally know the feeling of a sharp object brushing over my weak skin. It's a sweet pain, It feels good.
I have a mark on my wrist now. It's all pink. But for even just a minute, It took me away from my heart ache.
So what if this is a taboo...No one wants me anymore. Im just gooing ot get into more trouble after 2day.
When I wanted to talk to you....where were u?
I had no1 else but you...I felt like you abandoned me. I needed you the most, you were the only one who said such beautiful things about me, when I wanted to hear them the most...They were nowhere to be found.
Ohwell..Shouldn't I be use to this?
Use to not telling any1 about this...use to no1 to talk to...use to hiding my true face. It's repulsive.

Shit. my neck hurts.FUCK! im bleeding again...ARGH! y is my hair falling everytime i brush it?!?!?!?!?!?!?!
Is this some round i need to pass to see if im ready for the world?
I cant put up with this, I think im gonna lose to myself b4 i come to my senses.



God, I know you love me.
I cant be by ur side.
I have dirtied myself too much.
I sided with the Devil.
Im sorry.