Lalalalalalala.

Soz for not writing so long, juz been bz with all my projects, dance, choir and the class problem.
2day was DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA... Jac, Alison, M.T, Carmen, Ronald, Rachel and I were all fighting. I dunno what happened, but i dont wanna seem like a bad guy...but i wish Rachel never came to our house or our school. Tht is so evil of me to think tht XD
It was my first time seeing Carmen hate some1 so much she would actually say, "If it's rachel, i'll 'pai' her"...'pai' = bully or even worst :D
well..we're all changing, im sure it's okay~ but for tht few hours, we all seemed like different people, we forgot tht we were frendz...SIGH~
OH WELL! wateva~ i think everything is okay now (: at least i hope it is.
im so busy lately, i wish i had time to do the things i want...im so tired of school, im glad it's almost over. We all need a getaway from school, coz it's becoming to suffocating...at least for me it is. I feel lost. I need some1 to talk to everyday && some1 who i can share with. M.T is rly sweet, im glad we're gettin along, it relieves me most of the time. At least we have the same thinkin at times and the same idea....We're no called "M2" hahahahahhaa.
Well, rite now all i can think of is the dance...i think wilky is rly talented and im rly jealous, not jealous becoz he gets compliment and stuff...like the f*** i care XD Im jealous that he can improvise rly quick and okay-kinda-good and he kn ows so much about dancing. He is much more braver && talented, i respect him in some wayz coz of tht...im wondering if i'll ever be tht good, will i ever beat him or will we stand on equal ground?
But it surprises me how much i get complimented on how good we dance 2getha..Hahahaha, ppl thought we were lovers :P LMAO! well at least i know one thing...i can dance wif him and still look good *smirk* && i feel comfortable dancing wif him, im not saying i feel anything special or wierd, but it's like a feeling tht...u feel free, like u can touch the clouds and even though ur sweating or tired, u feel fresh and comfotable. Well...tht's how i feel dancing wif him, tht is y if me and him did a duet, i wouldn't hesitate, well i would...coz he is so skinny -3-
Im thinkin about form 1, and how we use to be so childish, young and playful...HAI! the pressure is on next year, we wont be call kids anymore -_- well..tht's good i guess =\
I miss mon, i have so much to talk to her and ask her, but i dunno how anymore. Not tht i feel distant with her, it's like i forgot how to talk to her now && sometimes i wonder, when we talk, is it I who changed or her...coz i have a feelin when we talk it's not the same, but it's not a bad thing either.
Im scared of so much things, but I feel like i became a bit more daring, at least I dun freak out too much when going on a date.
...tht's it for 2day, im gonna go shower now.
Bai.x

Day wif Rachel~

2day was awesome-ness, desu~
HAHAHAHAHAH!
me and Rachel hanged out for the whole day 2morrow and we walked like there was no 2morrow XDD
we had lunch at causeway bay ,took some rly bad sticker photos (>w<);; then we went to mong kok to go shopping and eating some more!!! we made like this sand thing-a-ma-bob to show our frendship && phone hangers wif both out name's on it and a date. We "smudged" a lot of stuff and we stayed there for like i dunno 8 hours or even more XD and... we walked around in and out of shops AND DUDE!!! she didn't let me buy this rly rly nice shirt coz the fabric was bad T^T booo~
The funniest part of the day was acting like lesbo (holding hands and calling each other rly rly cheesy names like honey, cheesecake etc.) and laughing and screaming on the streets...wat else?....hm.... as we were talkin about rly fat ppl in KFC, a bunch of them walked passed us and we LAUGHED OUR ASSES OFF (yes! pepsi came flying out of my nose -w-) we were saying how much we love each other at the end of the day and she refused to let me go home XDD funni Rachel~ honestly i think she isn't so bad, she actually has some respect in some wayz and im glad she isn't mad at my baka frend mon -3- instead she said she was kinda worried about mon and gave me some good advice that no1 ever told me...she is rly shweet and i kind of like her and got closer to her. ^-^ I wanna understand her more, since we have the same interest and the way we think...she's pretti fun to hang out around in, coz i can act all bad in front of her and she wont mind.
We had dinner at whampoa and walked to her house, we were wishing for school to close down the next day so we can party all day &&nite...we were practically screaming and ppl were lookin at us (embaressing =o=) but it was sooo fun, we were talkin about how when we turn 15, we can never ever take anything alcholic coz we would go crazy XDDD and probably do something stupid~ once we got to Rachel's house, we were lookin at all the stuff we got 2day and juz saying how it was fun and blah blah blah blah blah... x]
Her granni was nice enough to tell me which bus goes to my house coz i rly hate the train and both of them took me there XD

P.S to Rachel
I dont think u can get up to my level in the D.S && plz plz plz bring it back in one piece >_<

Maid Date~Ronald's house~Mong Kok

Sooo 2day i took like Ronald, Alison, M.T && Jacqueline to Maid Date ^-^
...FINALLY!!!...
it was pretti cool O: and their uniform was soooo adorable and 1 of the gurl wearing it looked like a gurl that came rite out of a manga XP she was sooo kawaii...i wanted to squeeze her and asked her if i could buy one maid outfit for myself XPPP
well the food was yummi, we ordered 2 cream puff XD and Ronald kept on making faces everytime the maid called us "Mater"...i thought it was cute, so i kept on laughing :D
I wanna work there =\ it looks rly fun and the uniform is sooo shweet~ I mean like seriously, not all the jobs u get get cool uniforms.
After that we went to Ronald's house, which was cozy and spacious...HAHAHAHA! i remembered in one of Ronald's drawers, we saw lyk perfectly white undies in a neat row *smirk*...me and the gurlz we laughing our butts off!!! totally hillarious coz they were all rly rly rly white and neat. i was surprised tht alison wore like a tank top O: coz she NEVER EVER wears one...I'm so poroud of her *cries* my baby Alison is growing up (:
we then went to Mong Kok to go like a lil bit of shopping, Jac had to leave half way coz her mom was pissed off at her for some funni reason -3-
Soooo...I, Alison & M.T went shopping 2getha~! me and M.T bought like matchin hair bands which had a cute ribbon sticking out, Alison bought quite a lot o_O i dun even remember wat she bought. I think she bought a ring, rubberband, Spongebob underwear *BUWAHAHAHAH*...dun remember anymore. I bought a cute top, and i was tempted to buy more, but i didn't coz i knew i wouldn't stop :P
2day was funn...and i feel lyk we're all gorwing in our own different wayz, which makes me kinda happi.

Shattered

Hey readers~
Sooo 2day lots of stuff happened, dun even know where to start, well...
SIGH!!! men i feel so dumb x_x
Rachel juz made me realize how stupid i rly am, how could i get played by her? UGH.
i feel so stupid standing up for her and even arguing wif my "bf" about her..i owe her like big apology and she was rite, Rachel is rly not worth it and she treats me like crap (hate to admit tht -_-)
i cant believe it though! i dont "think" we were tht close or rly rly good frendz, but was i tht low to her?
she even told me to get a haircut which would look good on me, but it actually looked horrible on me, switching and cutting out few words i said which makes me look like a total bitch and spreading out nasty rumours about me x_x
it's like totally major WTF! im so glad Alison told me && the gurlz all this, coz we were like ganging up on Alison...HAHAHAHA! XD
i got played again -_- and i thought we could be like good frendz and shit...Urghhh~ how stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid!!!!
there r like so much more worst things she said about me...i feel like soo hurt =\
i thought we actually were gettin along and there she goes, saying stuff behind my back, starting rumours about me being this and that. Im so sorry mon ;_; u were so rite about her...im juz so speechless, i dun even know how to properly badmouth her :P
...maybe imma juz go get more counseling b4 i do something stupid.

A feeling that i cant shake off

I've recently got counseling x_x it's a bit annoying, there r some things i dun wanna say but i end up saying them to a lady i dun even know XDD but oh well~ i get them every week..hahahah~
there r so many things going on all at the same time...the school dance is coming up, projects due date, summer and stupid swine flue...*Sigh!*
Miss Kwok seems to be a nice lady, i mean yeah o_o even though we barely know each other, she seems to understand how i feel and wat im looking for...not some1 to tell me it's alrite or tell me wat to do....she is actually talking to me about how i feel =\ which is really helpful and im glad she understands me and is giving me what i need.
I feel like im puttin on a mask each day to show people im strong and im not that easy, but i feel lonely. Rachel and Alison are gettin along which is good, but M.T, Jac, Carmen and I dont like Rachel much...Hahahaha!....but there isn't much we can do, it's better to have more frendz then enemies
I'm glad our class is not fighting and stuff....but i cant help but sometimes think that im lonely and left out, it's tiring to pretend to be happy when im actually sad each day...i want people to smile, AHH! im such a hypocrite -3- ehhh.
I want something to happen in my life...
Well P.G was interesting 2day, we talked about what is the different between "Love" && "Like"...hehehe ^_^ Stanley said i know a lot about love and like and that i know which is which :P well tht is the only thing i can say tht im good at, coz im an expert~ (JOKE!)...hmm wat else?.......................OH YAH! i can do a hand stand o_o im so shocked, but i cant roll ;_; in other words i cant do a handstand forward roll XD gymnastic is actually fun, i thought i would die...but it's my favourite P.E lesson so far.

M.

Start of my "NEW BLOG" <3

Mom woke me up to tell me to go "Drink Tea" ( it's a chinese thing, u dont have to understand it) at like 9am...AND IT WAS A SUNDAY!!! =_=
Okay. she left me since i like said no and stuff...at like 11:30-ish she came home, so i went to go open the door and i like see a whole bunch of guest in front of me and i was still in my PJ's, my messy hair and my messed up face XDD (how embaressing.)
Ran to my room and like locked it..noway i was gonna look like that in front of people, then sprinted all the way to the toilet :D...i was so stupid coz i forgot to bring clothes -3- so i told my sister to gimme something decent, she gave me like a really revealing tank top and really short shorts:
"Here sis, i couldn't like find anything else"
"Wat the....NONONONONONO! go and get me a T-shirt at least"
"Get it urself then" *walks away*
"COME BACK HERE!" *T^T*
Hahahahaha haaa haha haaaa...yeah anywayz i was looking for a jacket that i might have left in the toilet or something, so i found like one of my old T-shirts so i wore it XD well it was better then nothing.
After that the guest started play "Mahjong" (it's a chinese game, more like gambling) or w/e it is....forced me to eat cake ;_; and got my computer fixed :D
Then my dad called and this was our wonderful FATHER-DAUGHTER CONVERSATION:
"Hello? papa?" - Me
"Hello? cant u greet me anymore?" - Dad
"I did o_o i called u 'papa' "
"No u did not, u said who's this" (so the 'who's this' part he said tht in chinese)
"Noo......"
"Cant u send me message?"
"I didn't use the computer much yesterday, so i couldn't send u any message"
"Im not talkin about using the computer, cant you use your phone to send me a message?"
"I dont have your number"
"Then wat the heck do u have a phone for?"
"..."
"I think you staying there is makin you more stupid, and your turning into a bubble head...are you a bubble head?"
so i kind of juz rolled my eyes here and lift the phone away from my ears coz he was yelling for some reason.-_-
" Dont push me wei chuen<<(my chinese name) or i will do something to u...(or something like that)"
Ugh. he is such a dick...like i give a F***
then my frend told me to make a blog wif her, and yea (: i dunno y im doing this...coz i cant do this everyday XDD
so hope u enjoyed it~!, if u didn't...juz dont say anything :X

BaiBai.x