SOOO BORED! x_x
Im in ICT class && Im suppose to be doing my work :P ohwell~
Hahaha, Tiffany is gettin pissed off coz the computer freezes and shuts down itself whenever she goes on the internet xP
Im sooo bored x_x i keep thinkin of the random-est of things like....
. Like how i can help the poor/needy.
. Curtis is lookin more like a monkey each time i look at him =D
. New guy is such a racist, i wanna bash him.
. Audrey is half korean, WAT A SHOCKER! she's quite pretty (:
. Samuel's drawing looks like a dolphin
. Mon.... @_@
. My hair is soo messy, wanna fix it but cant coz no mirror ):
........................................................&& blahblahblahblahblahblahblahblah...............................................
Goes on and on. Enough about me.
School News:
Jack Chan&&Edith r dating...Wtf eww? o_O
Cherie&&James r dating...well their both ugly so i dont blame them for being attracted to each other.
Kt is like skipping classes and school. If she keeps tht up, she's gonna get in trouble.
Tiffany was just reading my blog -_-
Raphael confessed to Tiffany Pang...since when did he have the balls to confess?
Rachel is gettin a lot of haters.
Im gettin more popular as ppl tell me >_> i dun think so...
Guess tht's it for now.
Ohya~ almost forgot...Sparky like won this cute doggy competition. And these ppl r coming at 3 to like take videos of him and the house(wierd) and we get free stuff( i dun knowwat)...too bad i wont be there to see them video. But! their coming back at 8 to take pics of me with Sparky, so wierddd :P but exciting at the same time.
Hahaha me and tiffany were juz talkin abt Mon...XDD
Gott go now :P gettinkicked of my Miss.Phan, Aurevoir~
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
Monday, September 21, 2009
I hate ants.
The war broke.
I lost 2 times. I stood my ground and fought till blood shed.
I lost in everyway.
My opponenet has outgrown me, learnt my tactics and killed me.
I lay there defeated, in tears...the pain of my fingers, my head, my heart.
Im once blamed for it all. Im useless, a troublemaker, a nuisence, put it simply...im just an annoying bug that deseves to die.
Hahahaha, it hurts so much that it's becoming funny, I wonder how many times I've heard those words about me. I rather be deaf then hear such things about me.
Oh no...The ants are invading my heart again. What should I do? Their crawling all over it, It's making it hard for me to breath, Im suffocating...I feel dizzy.
I passed out for a moment and I was possessed by something else.
My whole body aches with pain and misery.
I look so ugly, Is it possible to be so young and yet feel so old?
My face is buried under the tears and the pain.
What should I do? Im scared.
Ouch...my fingers hurt, their bleeding.
My hair keeps falling out every 10 second. Im gonna be bald.
I lost again.
The Devil took over.
I finally know the feeling of a sharp object brushing over my weak skin. It's a sweet pain, It feels good.
I have a mark on my wrist now. It's all pink. But for even just a minute, It took me away from my heart ache.
So what if this is a taboo...No one wants me anymore. Im just gooing ot get into more trouble after 2day.
When I wanted to talk to you....where were u?
I had no1 else but you...I felt like you abandoned me. I needed you the most, you were the only one who said such beautiful things about me, when I wanted to hear them the most...They were nowhere to be found.
Ohwell..Shouldn't I be use to this?
Use to not telling any1 about this...use to no1 to talk to...use to hiding my true face. It's repulsive.
Shit. my neck hurts.FUCK! im bleeding again...ARGH! y is my hair falling everytime i brush it?!?!?!?!?!?!?!
Is this some round i need to pass to see if im ready for the world?
I cant put up with this, I think im gonna lose to myself b4 i come to my senses.
God, I know you love me.
I cant be by ur side.
I have dirtied myself too much.
I sided with the Devil.
Im sorry.
I lost 2 times. I stood my ground and fought till blood shed.
I lost in everyway.
My opponenet has outgrown me, learnt my tactics and killed me.
I lay there defeated, in tears...the pain of my fingers, my head, my heart.
Im once blamed for it all. Im useless, a troublemaker, a nuisence, put it simply...im just an annoying bug that deseves to die.
Hahahaha, it hurts so much that it's becoming funny, I wonder how many times I've heard those words about me. I rather be deaf then hear such things about me.
Oh no...The ants are invading my heart again. What should I do? Their crawling all over it, It's making it hard for me to breath, Im suffocating...I feel dizzy.
I passed out for a moment and I was possessed by something else.
My whole body aches with pain and misery.
I look so ugly, Is it possible to be so young and yet feel so old?
My face is buried under the tears and the pain.
What should I do? Im scared.
Ouch...my fingers hurt, their bleeding.
My hair keeps falling out every 10 second. Im gonna be bald.
I lost again.
The Devil took over.
I finally know the feeling of a sharp object brushing over my weak skin. It's a sweet pain, It feels good.
I have a mark on my wrist now. It's all pink. But for even just a minute, It took me away from my heart ache.
So what if this is a taboo...No one wants me anymore. Im just gooing ot get into more trouble after 2day.
When I wanted to talk to you....where were u?
I had no1 else but you...I felt like you abandoned me. I needed you the most, you were the only one who said such beautiful things about me, when I wanted to hear them the most...They were nowhere to be found.
Ohwell..Shouldn't I be use to this?
Use to not telling any1 about this...use to no1 to talk to...use to hiding my true face. It's repulsive.
Shit. my neck hurts.FUCK! im bleeding again...ARGH! y is my hair falling everytime i brush it?!?!?!?!?!?!?!
Is this some round i need to pass to see if im ready for the world?
I cant put up with this, I think im gonna lose to myself b4 i come to my senses.
God, I know you love me.
I cant be by ur side.
I have dirtied myself too much.
I sided with the Devil.
Im sorry.
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
Saturday, September 12, 2009
Reborn Once Again
Ahhh! I love the feeling of sleeping, that's when you let down your guard down, it's juz peaceful isn't it?
If I could be any animal...I would probably want to be a Koala, they just sleep and eat and nothing else. How great a life would that be then a human, all the complicated feelings we have, all the ridiculous arguments we bring up, how naive we really r......How repulsive we r.
Waking up is like fallin from Heaven straight down to Hell. I cant fall back to sleep anymore, Why not just let me sleep for another hour to let me dream of the Impossible's?
Oooohh! No wonder, I've been asleep for already 30 Mins since that incident.
I hate waking up...I really do. Especially waking up to the quietness, It's terrifying and puzzling. I have to deal with it, move on and just get over it like i always tell myself to do. How Lonely us humans r, no matter what we do...we're always having the feeling of lonliness and insecurity no? No point telling any1 rite? Coz no1 can understand u better then urself, It makes me sick to think that people understand others...there is no such thing. Ugh! here I go again, I let the shadows within me take over...Wish my smile&laughter could mask my true colours.
If I could be any animal...I would probably want to be a Koala, they just sleep and eat and nothing else. How great a life would that be then a human, all the complicated feelings we have, all the ridiculous arguments we bring up, how naive we really r......How repulsive we r.
Waking up is like fallin from Heaven straight down to Hell. I cant fall back to sleep anymore, Why not just let me sleep for another hour to let me dream of the Impossible's?
Oooohh! No wonder, I've been asleep for already 30 Mins since that incident.
I hate waking up...I really do. Especially waking up to the quietness, It's terrifying and puzzling. I have to deal with it, move on and just get over it like i always tell myself to do. How Lonely us humans r, no matter what we do...we're always having the feeling of lonliness and insecurity no? No point telling any1 rite? Coz no1 can understand u better then urself, It makes me sick to think that people understand others...there is no such thing. Ugh! here I go again, I let the shadows within me take over...Wish my smile&laughter could mask my true colours.
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
Rain Rain~
For the first time in my life, I woke up crying. Fear, ashamed, useless, pitiful and pathetic...all these feelings were racing through my mind...I couldn't help but shiver. I Despise him.
I think it's interesting that I could dream of him hitting me in public & I cried in my dream and in reality, this is how pitiful I am.
I don't know what im waiting for, but I have this lingering feeling that some one is coming for me, some one is going to rescue me from this madness, some one who will paint a rainbow for me everytime I cry.
Heh~ I feel sorta like a mad person...hehehehe.
I missed Youth Camp this year. I feel like crying...I DO want to cry! but I've reached the point where I cant even cry. Im losing confidence every day, I don't know who I can go to...I miss Mon so much. I miss her so much x_x There isn't a day I don't think of her, I sometimes pick up the phone and start dialing her home no. or her cell...but no one ever picks up. I don't think Im still completely over the fact she's not here anymore, it all happened so fast. I had no time to feel sorry for myself, all I could do was cry for her and wish for her safety and happiness. I remember the last time I saw her was at the Airport, i couldn't properly say "Bye" to her, there were so many people around and it was embaressing enough that I was crying...but...the main point is that I wasn't only crying because she was leaving me behind, I was crying because she was finally growing up && we're going to be living in 2 different worlds from that point on.
I'm so glad she's doing well over there. Everyone will definetely come to love her, all it takes is time...she just doesn't know it yet.
I just hope she wont change too much. Im actually quite jealous of her. She reminds me so much of a bird, she flys so high...all I can do is watch her.
Listening to music rite now, so Im just writing how I feel all at the same time....sorry, the organisation sucks alot, cause Im not thinking straight at the moment. Yup.
Im stuck here waiting for the Sun to stop this downpour.
I think it's interesting that I could dream of him hitting me in public & I cried in my dream and in reality, this is how pitiful I am.
I don't know what im waiting for, but I have this lingering feeling that some one is coming for me, some one is going to rescue me from this madness, some one who will paint a rainbow for me everytime I cry.
Heh~ I feel sorta like a mad person...hehehehe.
I missed Youth Camp this year. I feel like crying...I DO want to cry! but I've reached the point where I cant even cry. Im losing confidence every day, I don't know who I can go to...I miss Mon so much. I miss her so much x_x There isn't a day I don't think of her, I sometimes pick up the phone and start dialing her home no. or her cell...but no one ever picks up. I don't think Im still completely over the fact she's not here anymore, it all happened so fast. I had no time to feel sorry for myself, all I could do was cry for her and wish for her safety and happiness. I remember the last time I saw her was at the Airport, i couldn't properly say "Bye" to her, there were so many people around and it was embaressing enough that I was crying...but...the main point is that I wasn't only crying because she was leaving me behind, I was crying because she was finally growing up && we're going to be living in 2 different worlds from that point on.
I'm so glad she's doing well over there. Everyone will definetely come to love her, all it takes is time...she just doesn't know it yet.
I just hope she wont change too much. Im actually quite jealous of her. She reminds me so much of a bird, she flys so high...all I can do is watch her.
Listening to music rite now, so Im just writing how I feel all at the same time....sorry, the organisation sucks alot, cause Im not thinking straight at the moment. Yup.
Im stuck here waiting for the Sun to stop this downpour.
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
Pink is Awesome, so is White ;D
Yo! lalalala...men~ i haven't written anything for a while o_o
soo...my summer jasn't been going so well coz it suckzzz like s***
basically my dad did me a favour by ruining it for me (: juz great ai?
Im not allowed to go for YouthCamp >:'( && SOOO MANY PEOPLE ARE FRIGGIN GOING!!!
Gosh! coz of the stupid bruises i cant sleep properly coz they f***in hurt too much and i have to be consious of wat i wear or ppl might think im hurting myself or w/e -w-
It's hard to tell find some1 who can understand the sitsution im in and gimme some useful advices instead of telling me to "run away" or "call child abuse"...not tht i dont think it's useful, my family is very complicated as it is and my dad has issues, my mom is juz....well being a mom, my 2 sister dun know better and basically my whole family is messed up and they think im f***in messed up. No1 trust me, im useless, im a dumb brunette in their eyes :D and I have no frends to talk about stuff like this, coz i dun want them to pity me.
Did Mon rly not care about my situation? =\ ever since she said those 3 simple words, it's been haunting me in my sleep...maybe im being a bother to her.
Well yea ppl have better things to do then to hear some1 talk about them being tortured -3- maybe im being a dragggg.
Cooper was cool though, im glad he understood wat was going on, i felt like we could talk about stuff like tht, but i wasn't so sure if i could quite open up to him juz like tht. I think him and the idea of me running away was a bit to rash :P but im glad he understood.
Well 2day i tried not to think about Mon, i told my sister to help me paint my toe nails while i was doing my nails XDD it was quite fun and tiring =o= but at least it got my mind out of stuff. Im so glad my dad left 2day, at least a lil bit of freedom and relaxation.
For now.
soo...my summer jasn't been going so well coz it suckzzz like s***
basically my dad did me a favour by ruining it for me (: juz great ai?
Im not allowed to go for YouthCamp >:'( && SOOO MANY PEOPLE ARE FRIGGIN GOING!!!
Gosh! coz of the stupid bruises i cant sleep properly coz they f***in hurt too much and i have to be consious of wat i wear or ppl might think im hurting myself or w/e -w-
It's hard to tell find some1 who can understand the sitsution im in and gimme some useful advices instead of telling me to "run away" or "call child abuse"...not tht i dont think it's useful, my family is very complicated as it is and my dad has issues, my mom is juz....well being a mom, my 2 sister dun know better and basically my whole family is messed up and they think im f***in messed up. No1 trust me, im useless, im a dumb brunette in their eyes :D and I have no frends to talk about stuff like this, coz i dun want them to pity me.
Did Mon rly not care about my situation? =\ ever since she said those 3 simple words, it's been haunting me in my sleep...maybe im being a bother to her.
Well yea ppl have better things to do then to hear some1 talk about them being tortured -3- maybe im being a dragggg.
Cooper was cool though, im glad he understood wat was going on, i felt like we could talk about stuff like tht, but i wasn't so sure if i could quite open up to him juz like tht. I think him and the idea of me running away was a bit to rash :P but im glad he understood.
Well 2day i tried not to think about Mon, i told my sister to help me paint my toe nails while i was doing my nails XDD it was quite fun and tiring =o= but at least it got my mind out of stuff. Im so glad my dad left 2day, at least a lil bit of freedom and relaxation.
For now.
Monday, July 6, 2009
A dream
Haven't written for quite a while, sorry (>_<)''/ been bz wif stuff.
well...i've recently been dreaming the same dream over and over.
It's wif this guy, i dunno he's like blond, curly hair, muscular and tall...but i can never see his face. It's like a mystery. In my dream, it looks like we r couples.
So basically i am in a big garden, im asleepin on this big hammock...i feel the wind, the trees, the flowers& grass(it's like i was connected to it). Sparky and this other Big white dog...which looks like a husky ^-^ was asleep on the hammock wif me, it's like they were guarding me. My "guy" is juz coming home from work or w/e (i dunno)and...OH! i forgot to mention, in my dream, for some reason everything is white...like the clothes im wearing, the hammock....well of course the trees and etc. aren't white...even the house is white! Yea..anyway, my "guy" is waering white too, and damn! even though i cant see his face, his body is like so hot *drools*
Im still asleep on the hammock, my 2 dogs wake up and runs to him and starts licking him. Sooo...he lies in the hammock toooo ( yaay^_^) like face to face wif me and our hands and legs gets tangled (dun ask me how or y, i dunno). After tht he slowly tries to kiss me....and...I FRIGGIN WAKE UP!
i know it sounds corny, but...it's the same dreeam over and over. If im not dreaming abt this, i dont even dream at all...i juz sleep XD Im kinda curious about it, it's alwayz the same dream and the same place where i wake up. I wanna know who is this guy, IMPOSSIBLE! noway in hell can i meet such a hotty, it's sad though...i cant even see his face, all i know he smells like roses and the ocean.
-SIGH- I wanna meet my guy soon, im a 1 guy kinda gurl...it's kinda hard to be pateint, when all ur frendz r gettin boyfrendz...even tiffany lai has one now ):
It even makes it harder when ur frendz try to introduce u to one and encourage u to juz have a bf for experimenting =\
Lately, i've been thinkin whether im lesbo...or something is juz wrong wif my sex appeal, or maybe im giving off the wrong vibe, i look ugly to guyz and only look good to my frendz, dunno hwo to talk normally in front of guyz or im juz not the kind of gurl a guy would want.
I wish he would appear soon, but i dont want any guy~ i want some1 faithful, loyal, stubborn, adorable, understanding, sly,smart and of course...he should love me even if the world starts crumbling.
Heh~ maybe im asking too much, it's not like i deserve some1 so amazing, i rly am asking too much. I hope ppl know how incredibly hard and amazing it is to be in a relationship and still love each other and stay faithful....i juz wish ppl wouldn't break up tht ezily, the least they could do is talk to the other person first!!!
okay, it's late now XDD
im off to bed, nity nite~x
well...i've recently been dreaming the same dream over and over.
It's wif this guy, i dunno he's like blond, curly hair, muscular and tall...but i can never see his face. It's like a mystery. In my dream, it looks like we r couples.
So basically i am in a big garden, im asleepin on this big hammock...i feel the wind, the trees, the flowers& grass(it's like i was connected to it). Sparky and this other Big white dog...which looks like a husky ^-^ was asleep on the hammock wif me, it's like they were guarding me. My "guy" is juz coming home from work or w/e (i dunno)and...OH! i forgot to mention, in my dream, for some reason everything is white...like the clothes im wearing, the hammock....well of course the trees and etc. aren't white...even the house is white! Yea..anyway, my "guy" is waering white too, and damn! even though i cant see his face, his body is like so hot *drools*
Im still asleep on the hammock, my 2 dogs wake up and runs to him and starts licking him. Sooo...he lies in the hammock toooo ( yaay^_^) like face to face wif me and our hands and legs gets tangled (dun ask me how or y, i dunno). After tht he slowly tries to kiss me....and...I FRIGGIN WAKE UP!
i know it sounds corny, but...it's the same dreeam over and over. If im not dreaming abt this, i dont even dream at all...i juz sleep XD Im kinda curious about it, it's alwayz the same dream and the same place where i wake up. I wanna know who is this guy, IMPOSSIBLE! noway in hell can i meet such a hotty, it's sad though...i cant even see his face, all i know he smells like roses and the ocean.
-SIGH- I wanna meet my guy soon, im a 1 guy kinda gurl...it's kinda hard to be pateint, when all ur frendz r gettin boyfrendz...even tiffany lai has one now ):
It even makes it harder when ur frendz try to introduce u to one and encourage u to juz have a bf for experimenting =\
Lately, i've been thinkin whether im lesbo...or something is juz wrong wif my sex appeal, or maybe im giving off the wrong vibe, i look ugly to guyz and only look good to my frendz, dunno hwo to talk normally in front of guyz or im juz not the kind of gurl a guy would want.
I wish he would appear soon, but i dont want any guy~ i want some1 faithful, loyal, stubborn, adorable, understanding, sly,smart and of course...he should love me even if the world starts crumbling.
Heh~ maybe im asking too much, it's not like i deserve some1 so amazing, i rly am asking too much. I hope ppl know how incredibly hard and amazing it is to be in a relationship and still love each other and stay faithful....i juz wish ppl wouldn't break up tht ezily, the least they could do is talk to the other person first!!!
okay, it's late now XDD
im off to bed, nity nite~x
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Lalalalalalala.
Soz for not writing so long, juz been bz with all my projects, dance, choir and the class problem.
2day was DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA... Jac, Alison, M.T, Carmen, Ronald, Rachel and I were all fighting. I dunno what happened, but i dont wanna seem like a bad guy...but i wish Rachel never came to our house or our school. Tht is so evil of me to think tht XD
It was my first time seeing Carmen hate some1 so much she would actually say, "If it's rachel, i'll 'pai' her"...'pai' = bully or even worst :D
well..we're all changing, im sure it's okay~ but for tht few hours, we all seemed like different people, we forgot tht we were frendz...SIGH~
OH WELL! wateva~ i think everything is okay now (: at least i hope it is.
im so busy lately, i wish i had time to do the things i want...im so tired of school, im glad it's almost over. We all need a getaway from school, coz it's becoming to suffocating...at least for me it is. I feel lost. I need some1 to talk to everyday && some1 who i can share with. M.T is rly sweet, im glad we're gettin along, it relieves me most of the time. At least we have the same thinkin at times and the same idea....We're no called "M2" hahahahahhaa.
Well, rite now all i can think of is the dance...i think wilky is rly talented and im rly jealous, not jealous becoz he gets compliment and stuff...like the f*** i care XD Im jealous that he can improvise rly quick and okay-kinda-good and he kn ows so much about dancing. He is much more braver && talented, i respect him in some wayz coz of tht...im wondering if i'll ever be tht good, will i ever beat him or will we stand on equal ground?
But it surprises me how much i get complimented on how good we dance 2getha..Hahahaha, ppl thought we were lovers :P LMAO! well at least i know one thing...i can dance wif him and still look good *smirk* && i feel comfortable dancing wif him, im not saying i feel anything special or wierd, but it's like a feeling tht...u feel free, like u can touch the clouds and even though ur sweating or tired, u feel fresh and comfotable. Well...tht's how i feel dancing wif him, tht is y if me and him did a duet, i wouldn't hesitate, well i would...coz he is so skinny -3-
Im thinkin about form 1, and how we use to be so childish, young and playful...HAI! the pressure is on next year, we wont be call kids anymore -_- well..tht's good i guess =\
I miss mon, i have so much to talk to her and ask her, but i dunno how anymore. Not tht i feel distant with her, it's like i forgot how to talk to her now && sometimes i wonder, when we talk, is it I who changed or her...coz i have a feelin when we talk it's not the same, but it's not a bad thing either.
Im scared of so much things, but I feel like i became a bit more daring, at least I dun freak out too much when going on a date.
...tht's it for 2day, im gonna go shower now.
Bai.x
2day was DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA... Jac, Alison, M.T, Carmen, Ronald, Rachel and I were all fighting. I dunno what happened, but i dont wanna seem like a bad guy...but i wish Rachel never came to our house or our school. Tht is so evil of me to think tht XD
It was my first time seeing Carmen hate some1 so much she would actually say, "If it's rachel, i'll 'pai' her"...'pai' = bully or even worst :D
well..we're all changing, im sure it's okay~ but for tht few hours, we all seemed like different people, we forgot tht we were frendz...SIGH~
OH WELL! wateva~ i think everything is okay now (: at least i hope it is.
im so busy lately, i wish i had time to do the things i want...im so tired of school, im glad it's almost over. We all need a getaway from school, coz it's becoming to suffocating...at least for me it is. I feel lost. I need some1 to talk to everyday && some1 who i can share with. M.T is rly sweet, im glad we're gettin along, it relieves me most of the time. At least we have the same thinkin at times and the same idea....We're no called "M2" hahahahahhaa.
Well, rite now all i can think of is the dance...i think wilky is rly talented and im rly jealous, not jealous becoz he gets compliment and stuff...like the f*** i care XD Im jealous that he can improvise rly quick and okay-kinda-good and he kn ows so much about dancing. He is much more braver && talented, i respect him in some wayz coz of tht...im wondering if i'll ever be tht good, will i ever beat him or will we stand on equal ground?
But it surprises me how much i get complimented on how good we dance 2getha..Hahahaha, ppl thought we were lovers :P LMAO! well at least i know one thing...i can dance wif him and still look good *smirk* && i feel comfortable dancing wif him, im not saying i feel anything special or wierd, but it's like a feeling tht...u feel free, like u can touch the clouds and even though ur sweating or tired, u feel fresh and comfotable. Well...tht's how i feel dancing wif him, tht is y if me and him did a duet, i wouldn't hesitate, well i would...coz he is so skinny -3-
Im thinkin about form 1, and how we use to be so childish, young and playful...HAI! the pressure is on next year, we wont be call kids anymore -_- well..tht's good i guess =\
I miss mon, i have so much to talk to her and ask her, but i dunno how anymore. Not tht i feel distant with her, it's like i forgot how to talk to her now && sometimes i wonder, when we talk, is it I who changed or her...coz i have a feelin when we talk it's not the same, but it's not a bad thing either.
Im scared of so much things, but I feel like i became a bit more daring, at least I dun freak out too much when going on a date.
...tht's it for 2day, im gonna go shower now.
Bai.x
Sunday, June 21, 2009
Day wif Rachel~
2day was awesome-ness, desu~
HAHAHAHAHAH!
me and Rachel hanged out for the whole day 2morrow and we walked like there was no 2morrow XDD
we had lunch at causeway bay ,took some rly bad sticker photos (>w<);; then we went to mong kok to go shopping and eating some more!!! we made like this sand thing-a-ma-bob to show our frendship && phone hangers wif both out name's on it and a date. We "smudged" a lot of stuff and we stayed there for like i dunno 8 hours or even more XD and... we walked around in and out of shops AND DUDE!!! she didn't let me buy this rly rly nice shirt coz the fabric was bad T^T booo~
The funniest part of the day was acting like lesbo (holding hands and calling each other rly rly cheesy names like honey, cheesecake etc.) and laughing and screaming on the streets...wat else?....hm.... as we were talkin about rly fat ppl in KFC, a bunch of them walked passed us and we LAUGHED OUR ASSES OFF (yes! pepsi came flying out of my nose -w-) we were saying how much we love each other at the end of the day and she refused to let me go home XDD funni Rachel~ honestly i think she isn't so bad, she actually has some respect in some wayz and im glad she isn't mad at my baka frend mon -3- instead she said she was kinda worried about mon and gave me some good advice that no1 ever told me...she is rly shweet and i kind of like her and got closer to her. ^-^ I wanna understand her more, since we have the same interest and the way we think...she's pretti fun to hang out around in, coz i can act all bad in front of her and she wont mind.
We had dinner at whampoa and walked to her house, we were wishing for school to close down the next day so we can party all day &&nite...we were practically screaming and ppl were lookin at us (embaressing =o=) but it was sooo fun, we were talkin about how when we turn 15, we can never ever take anything alcholic coz we would go crazy XDDD and probably do something stupid~ once we got to Rachel's house, we were lookin at all the stuff we got 2day and juz saying how it was fun and blah blah blah blah blah... x]
Her granni was nice enough to tell me which bus goes to my house coz i rly hate the train and both of them took me there XD
P.S to Rachel
I dont think u can get up to my level in the D.S && plz plz plz bring it back in one piece >_<
HAHAHAHAHAH!
me and Rachel hanged out for the whole day 2morrow and we walked like there was no 2morrow XDD
we had lunch at causeway bay ,took some rly bad sticker photos (>w<);; then we went to mong kok to go shopping and eating some more!!! we made like this sand thing-a-ma-bob to show our frendship && phone hangers wif both out name's on it and a date. We "smudged" a lot of stuff and we stayed there for like i dunno 8 hours or even more XD and... we walked around in and out of shops AND DUDE!!! she didn't let me buy this rly rly nice shirt coz the fabric was bad T^T booo~
The funniest part of the day was acting like lesbo (holding hands and calling each other rly rly cheesy names like honey, cheesecake etc.) and laughing and screaming on the streets...wat else?....hm.... as we were talkin about rly fat ppl in KFC, a bunch of them walked passed us and we LAUGHED OUR ASSES OFF (yes! pepsi came flying out of my nose -w-) we were saying how much we love each other at the end of the day and she refused to let me go home XDD funni Rachel~ honestly i think she isn't so bad, she actually has some respect in some wayz and im glad she isn't mad at my baka frend mon -3- instead she said she was kinda worried about mon and gave me some good advice that no1 ever told me...she is rly shweet and i kind of like her and got closer to her. ^-^ I wanna understand her more, since we have the same interest and the way we think...she's pretti fun to hang out around in, coz i can act all bad in front of her and she wont mind.
We had dinner at whampoa and walked to her house, we were wishing for school to close down the next day so we can party all day &&nite...we were practically screaming and ppl were lookin at us (embaressing =o=) but it was sooo fun, we were talkin about how when we turn 15, we can never ever take anything alcholic coz we would go crazy XDDD and probably do something stupid~ once we got to Rachel's house, we were lookin at all the stuff we got 2day and juz saying how it was fun and blah blah blah blah blah... x]
Her granni was nice enough to tell me which bus goes to my house coz i rly hate the train and both of them took me there XD
P.S to Rachel
I dont think u can get up to my level in the D.S && plz plz plz bring it back in one piece >_<
Saturday, June 20, 2009
Maid Date~Ronald's house~Mong Kok
Sooo 2day i took like Ronald, Alison, M.T && Jacqueline to Maid Date ^-^
...FINALLY!!!...
it was pretti cool O: and their uniform was soooo adorable and 1 of the gurl wearing it looked like a gurl that came rite out of a manga XP she was sooo kawaii...i wanted to squeeze her and asked her if i could buy one maid outfit for myself XPPP
well the food was yummi, we ordered 2 cream puff XD and Ronald kept on making faces everytime the maid called us "Mater"...i thought it was cute, so i kept on laughing :D
I wanna work there =\ it looks rly fun and the uniform is sooo shweet~ I mean like seriously, not all the jobs u get get cool uniforms.
After that we went to Ronald's house, which was cozy and spacious...HAHAHAHA! i remembered in one of Ronald's drawers, we saw lyk perfectly white undies in a neat row *smirk*...me and the gurlz we laughing our butts off!!! totally hillarious coz they were all rly rly rly white and neat. i was surprised tht alison wore like a tank top O: coz she NEVER EVER wears one...I'm so poroud of her *cries* my baby Alison is growing up (:
we then went to Mong Kok to go like a lil bit of shopping, Jac had to leave half way coz her mom was pissed off at her for some funni reason -3-
Soooo...I, Alison & M.T went shopping 2getha~! me and M.T bought like matchin hair bands which had a cute ribbon sticking out, Alison bought quite a lot o_O i dun even remember wat she bought. I think she bought a ring, rubberband, Spongebob underwear *BUWAHAHAHAH*...dun remember anymore. I bought a cute top, and i was tempted to buy more, but i didn't coz i knew i wouldn't stop :P
2day was funn...and i feel lyk we're all gorwing in our own different wayz, which makes me kinda happi.
...FINALLY!!!...
it was pretti cool O: and their uniform was soooo adorable and 1 of the gurl wearing it looked like a gurl that came rite out of a manga XP she was sooo kawaii...i wanted to squeeze her and asked her if i could buy one maid outfit for myself XPPP
well the food was yummi, we ordered 2 cream puff XD and Ronald kept on making faces everytime the maid called us "Mater"...i thought it was cute, so i kept on laughing :D
I wanna work there =\ it looks rly fun and the uniform is sooo shweet~ I mean like seriously, not all the jobs u get get cool uniforms.
After that we went to Ronald's house, which was cozy and spacious...HAHAHAHA! i remembered in one of Ronald's drawers, we saw lyk perfectly white undies in a neat row *smirk*...me and the gurlz we laughing our butts off!!! totally hillarious coz they were all rly rly rly white and neat. i was surprised tht alison wore like a tank top O: coz she NEVER EVER wears one...I'm so poroud of her *cries* my baby Alison is growing up (:
we then went to Mong Kok to go like a lil bit of shopping, Jac had to leave half way coz her mom was pissed off at her for some funni reason -3-
Soooo...I, Alison & M.T went shopping 2getha~! me and M.T bought like matchin hair bands which had a cute ribbon sticking out, Alison bought quite a lot o_O i dun even remember wat she bought. I think she bought a ring, rubberband, Spongebob underwear *BUWAHAHAHAH*...dun remember anymore. I bought a cute top, and i was tempted to buy more, but i didn't coz i knew i wouldn't stop :P
2day was funn...and i feel lyk we're all gorwing in our own different wayz, which makes me kinda happi.
Thursday, June 18, 2009
Shattered
Hey readers~
Sooo 2day lots of stuff happened, dun even know where to start, well...
SIGH!!! men i feel so dumb x_x
Rachel juz made me realize how stupid i rly am, how could i get played by her? UGH.
i feel so stupid standing up for her and even arguing wif my "bf" about her..i owe her like big apology and she was rite, Rachel is rly not worth it and she treats me like crap (hate to admit tht -_-)
i cant believe it though! i dont "think" we were tht close or rly rly good frendz, but was i tht low to her?
she even told me to get a haircut which would look good on me, but it actually looked horrible on me, switching and cutting out few words i said which makes me look like a total bitch and spreading out nasty rumours about me x_x
it's like totally major WTF! im so glad Alison told me && the gurlz all this, coz we were like ganging up on Alison...HAHAHAHA! XD
i got played again -_- and i thought we could be like good frendz and shit...Urghhh~ how stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid!!!!
there r like so much more worst things she said about me...i feel like soo hurt =\
i thought we actually were gettin along and there she goes, saying stuff behind my back, starting rumours about me being this and that. Im so sorry mon ;_; u were so rite about her...im juz so speechless, i dun even know how to properly badmouth her :P
...maybe imma juz go get more counseling b4 i do something stupid.
Sooo 2day lots of stuff happened, dun even know where to start, well...
SIGH!!! men i feel so dumb x_x
Rachel juz made me realize how stupid i rly am, how could i get played by her? UGH.
i feel so stupid standing up for her and even arguing wif my "bf" about her..i owe her like big apology and she was rite, Rachel is rly not worth it and she treats me like crap (hate to admit tht -_-)
i cant believe it though! i dont "think" we were tht close or rly rly good frendz, but was i tht low to her?
she even told me to get a haircut which would look good on me, but it actually looked horrible on me, switching and cutting out few words i said which makes me look like a total bitch and spreading out nasty rumours about me x_x
it's like totally major WTF! im so glad Alison told me && the gurlz all this, coz we were like ganging up on Alison...HAHAHAHA! XD
i got played again -_- and i thought we could be like good frendz and shit...Urghhh~ how stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid!!!!
there r like so much more worst things she said about me...i feel like soo hurt =\
i thought we actually were gettin along and there she goes, saying stuff behind my back, starting rumours about me being this and that. Im so sorry mon ;_; u were so rite about her...im juz so speechless, i dun even know how to properly badmouth her :P
...maybe imma juz go get more counseling b4 i do something stupid.
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
A feeling that i cant shake off
I've recently got counseling x_x it's a bit annoying, there r some things i dun wanna say but i end up saying them to a lady i dun even know XDD but oh well~ i get them every week..hahahah~
there r so many things going on all at the same time...the school dance is coming up, projects due date, summer and stupid swine flue...*Sigh!*
Miss Kwok seems to be a nice lady, i mean yeah o_o even though we barely know each other, she seems to understand how i feel and wat im looking for...not some1 to tell me it's alrite or tell me wat to do....she is actually talking to me about how i feel =\ which is really helpful and im glad she understands me and is giving me what i need.
I feel like im puttin on a mask each day to show people im strong and im not that easy, but i feel lonely. Rachel and Alison are gettin along which is good, but M.T, Jac, Carmen and I dont like Rachel much...Hahahaha!....but there isn't much we can do, it's better to have more frendz then enemies
I'm glad our class is not fighting and stuff....but i cant help but sometimes think that im lonely and left out, it's tiring to pretend to be happy when im actually sad each day...i want people to smile, AHH! im such a hypocrite -3- ehhh.
I want something to happen in my life...
Well P.G was interesting 2day, we talked about what is the different between "Love" && "Like"...hehehe ^_^ Stanley said i know a lot about love and like and that i know which is which :P well tht is the only thing i can say tht im good at, coz im an expert~ (JOKE!)...hmm wat else?.......................OH YAH! i can do a hand stand o_o im so shocked, but i cant roll ;_; in other words i cant do a handstand forward roll XD gymnastic is actually fun, i thought i would die...but it's my favourite P.E lesson so far.
M.
there r so many things going on all at the same time...the school dance is coming up, projects due date, summer and stupid swine flue...*Sigh!*
Miss Kwok seems to be a nice lady, i mean yeah o_o even though we barely know each other, she seems to understand how i feel and wat im looking for...not some1 to tell me it's alrite or tell me wat to do....she is actually talking to me about how i feel =\ which is really helpful and im glad she understands me and is giving me what i need.
I feel like im puttin on a mask each day to show people im strong and im not that easy, but i feel lonely. Rachel and Alison are gettin along which is good, but M.T, Jac, Carmen and I dont like Rachel much...Hahahaha!....but there isn't much we can do, it's better to have more frendz then enemies
I'm glad our class is not fighting and stuff....but i cant help but sometimes think that im lonely and left out, it's tiring to pretend to be happy when im actually sad each day...i want people to smile, AHH! im such a hypocrite -3- ehhh.
I want something to happen in my life...
Well P.G was interesting 2day, we talked about what is the different between "Love" && "Like"...hehehe ^_^ Stanley said i know a lot about love and like and that i know which is which :P well tht is the only thing i can say tht im good at, coz im an expert~ (JOKE!)...hmm wat else?.......................OH YAH! i can do a hand stand o_o im so shocked, but i cant roll ;_; in other words i cant do a handstand forward roll XD gymnastic is actually fun, i thought i would die...but it's my favourite P.E lesson so far.
M.
Sunday, June 14, 2009
Start of my "NEW BLOG" <3
Mom woke me up to tell me to go "Drink Tea" ( it's a chinese thing, u dont have to understand it) at like 9am...AND IT WAS A SUNDAY!!! =_=
Okay. she left me since i like said no and stuff...at like 11:30-ish she came home, so i went to go open the door and i like see a whole bunch of guest in front of me and i was still in my PJ's, my messy hair and my messed up face XDD (how embaressing.)
Ran to my room and like locked it..noway i was gonna look like that in front of people, then sprinted all the way to the toilet :D...i was so stupid coz i forgot to bring clothes -3- so i told my sister to gimme something decent, she gave me like a really revealing tank top and really short shorts:
"Here sis, i couldn't like find anything else"
"Wat the....NONONONONONO! go and get me a T-shirt at least"
"Get it urself then" *walks away*
"COME BACK HERE!" *T^T*
Hahahahaha haaa haha haaaa...yeah anywayz i was looking for a jacket that i might have left in the toilet or something, so i found like one of my old T-shirts so i wore it XD well it was better then nothing.
After that the guest started play "Mahjong" (it's a chinese game, more like gambling) or w/e it is....forced me to eat cake ;_; and got my computer fixed :D
Then my dad called and this was our wonderful FATHER-DAUGHTER CONVERSATION:
"Hello? papa?" - Me
"Hello? cant u greet me anymore?" - Dad
"I did o_o i called u 'papa' "
"No u did not, u said who's this" (so the 'who's this' part he said tht in chinese)
"Noo......"
"Cant u send me message?"
"I didn't use the computer much yesterday, so i couldn't send u any message"
"Im not talkin about using the computer, cant you use your phone to send me a message?"
"I dont have your number"
"Then wat the heck do u have a phone for?"
"..."
"I think you staying there is makin you more stupid, and your turning into a bubble head...are you a bubble head?"
so i kind of juz rolled my eyes here and lift the phone away from my ears coz he was yelling for some reason.-_-
" Dont push me wei chuen<<(my chinese name) or i will do something to u...(or something like that)"
Ugh. he is such a dick...like i give a F***
then my frend told me to make a blog wif her, and yea (: i dunno y im doing this...coz i cant do this everyday XDD
so hope u enjoyed it~!, if u didn't...juz dont say anything :X
BaiBai.x
Okay. she left me since i like said no and stuff...at like 11:30-ish she came home, so i went to go open the door and i like see a whole bunch of guest in front of me and i was still in my PJ's, my messy hair and my messed up face XDD (how embaressing.)
Ran to my room and like locked it..noway i was gonna look like that in front of people, then sprinted all the way to the toilet :D...i was so stupid coz i forgot to bring clothes -3- so i told my sister to gimme something decent, she gave me like a really revealing tank top and really short shorts:
"Here sis, i couldn't like find anything else"
"Wat the....NONONONONONO! go and get me a T-shirt at least"
"Get it urself then" *walks away*
"COME BACK HERE!" *T^T*
Hahahahaha haaa haha haaaa...yeah anywayz i was looking for a jacket that i might have left in the toilet or something, so i found like one of my old T-shirts so i wore it XD well it was better then nothing.
After that the guest started play "Mahjong" (it's a chinese game, more like gambling) or w/e it is....forced me to eat cake ;_; and got my computer fixed :D
Then my dad called and this was our wonderful FATHER-DAUGHTER CONVERSATION:
"Hello? papa?" - Me
"Hello? cant u greet me anymore?" - Dad
"I did o_o i called u 'papa' "
"No u did not, u said who's this" (so the 'who's this' part he said tht in chinese)
"Noo......"
"Cant u send me message?"
"I didn't use the computer much yesterday, so i couldn't send u any message"
"Im not talkin about using the computer, cant you use your phone to send me a message?"
"I dont have your number"
"Then wat the heck do u have a phone for?"
"..."
"I think you staying there is makin you more stupid, and your turning into a bubble head...are you a bubble head?"
so i kind of juz rolled my eyes here and lift the phone away from my ears coz he was yelling for some reason.-_-
" Dont push me wei chuen<<(my chinese name) or i will do something to u...(or something like that)"
Ugh. he is such a dick...like i give a F***
then my frend told me to make a blog wif her, and yea (: i dunno y im doing this...coz i cant do this everyday XDD
so hope u enjoyed it~!, if u didn't...juz dont say anything :X
BaiBai.x
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